Identity

I wonder..

What if im not an artist

I try but it pains me

For others it brings so much joy

And I wonder..

I know that I'm not an empath

I'm downright oblivious

But all these sensitive guys..

They are where it's at!

I'm looking down the barrel

Of my beliefs about my shortcomings

And I can see its not loaded 

But I'm curious

What exactly am I?

What am I even good for?

How will I know?

I guess I'll just keep practicing

Being whatever comes out of me

Until I maybe understand

What it is 

What it's for

Dear girl,

Why do you compare your life to the others?

You cannot compare emptiness to fullness..

No one else is being asked to be what you are being asked to be

(they are trying to be what they are being asked to be)

Dear girl,

Why are you looking around for evidence of who you are?

You are not the cause of all of this.. There are so many variables, 

maybe you do not ever get to know the cause!

You are empty

Look around for evidence of what is best to fill yourself with.

If love is needed

Fill yourself with love

If kindness is needed 

Fill yourself with kindness

If respect is needed

Fill yourself with great respect

If learning is needed 

Fill yourself with curiosity 

If trust is needed

Then be full of trust

Do not fill yourself with sadness

Because your life is not already full

What has all of this learning been for 

If not for this

...

Sometimes I'm pretty exhausted

A lot of times 

I look around and see all the people

Having fun

Being welcome

Being a part of something

But I can't get up

So, I guess I'll just have to hunker down

Build a little fire right here in this moment

Try to protect it from the wind

Hope it maybe grows

Who Are You?

What if..

When you wake up in the morning

Before you have your first thought

Before you do anything at all

You are the one

Looking out through those eyes

What if..

You are the one invited to this party

Sometimes the party is happening to you

Sometimes you are happening to the party

But everything in all of reality 

Is holding its breath

Waiting to see what will happen

All you ever need to do is show up

Sounds True

Did you know that if you change the sounds associated with your body, you can change your perception of what your body feels like? There have been some interesting studies about this. In one they asked participants to tap two points on the table with their finger. The participants wore headphones so that instead of hearing the sound of their finger tapping on the table, they heard a slightly longer delay between the two sounds. Afterwards the participants were touched on their arm in two places. Those with the sound delay greatly overestimated the distance between the two places on their arm. To them their arm felt longer. 

In another study they had participants put on "special" shoes. They were actually just normal shoes with headphones attached. Instead of hearing the sound of their feet against the floor, they heard the sounds with the pitch elevated. The participants reported feeling lighter, leaner and even stronger and more elegant.

This makes me think about how our senses are all working together to form a coherent sense of reality. It seems like maybe when we encounter something out of the ordinary our other senses quickly attempt to bring this information into the whole picture, even effecting other senses where there is no new information present. Coherence must be really important to our brain. I wonder how it works. I wonder if any and all of your senses can affect and be affected by this process.

I wonder about our thoughts in relation to this process. Sometimes I think our thoughts are a lot like any of our other senses, telling us information about the world around us. I wonder if they can affect our other senses in this way, all on their own, by changing. I wonder if they are being affected by changes in any of our other senses without our awareness of it.